Australia January 17, 2010

Well i am finally writing my first blog from Sydney, Sorry it has taken me nearly 3 weeks but it has been crazy.

The first few days of being here in fact the first week were tough i wasn’t sleeping and the realisation i wasn’t going to see my family or friends for a long time kinda hit me hard luckily Lorna my new flatmate and new boss has been through the exact same thing! she came over here 5 years ago and is now a resident.

Anyway started work at Sydney airport it is HUGE done so much walking my wee feet have loads of blisters

The training is going well i start my first official shift at 8am on the 25th January eeeeeeek hopefully it all goes well *fingers crossed*

the weather hasn’t been the best to be honest few hot days but alot of clouds and thunderstorms recently, i have to say i’m kinda glad as it lets me settle in without sweating to death!!!

February is to be a hot month though so that should be interesting haha

The guys at work all seem lovely and have been out with Lorna and her friends a couple who i already knew from being over here on Holiday, in fact one of them is getting married on valentine’s day and has invited me which was lovely of her

I also have a few gigs lined up, firstly Big Day Out which has Muse, Lily Allen, Kasabian, The Temper Trap loads more and then in Feb good vibrations with the killers, gossip and loads of cheesy bands

lots to look forward to …

Anyhoo i am off to bed as i am shattered will try keep updating when i remember

take care xx

What to do? … December 18, 2009

I’ve been off Twitter a day or so and other than answering some DM’s i haven’t really missed it! The people i really like have other ways to contact me if they really wanted to – phone/txt/Facebook it’s all getting a bit much now and I’m really not sure i want to go back!!

I have some sort of cold/flu the now so that’s the reason I had been off, but now that i am off  i have to admit it feels quite good!

Twitter started out as a bit of fun for me,  i genuinely tried my best to speak to anyone who spoke to me and if you follow me you will see that has led me to have over 45000 updates!! eeeek

I have had the pleasure of meeting a good handful of folk at the Twestival which was fab but over the last couple of weeks i think everyone has realised how odd twitter has become.

We have all become paranoid in thinking the people we talk to are liars and fakes, people are putting webcam pictures of themselves with their @ username on a piece of paper to prove they are real!! for god sake it’s ridiculous plus I’m even worse than most as just because someone proves they are a real person doesn’t mean they don’t have 2, 3, 4, 5 or more accounts that they use on twitter pretending to be other ppl.

I know for a fact it gets done as certain people have admitted to it, i don’t follow them anymore and it probably isn’t who my friends on twitter would think it was! some people just crave attention and try to make others jealous by making up stories to make them seem more interesting, but we all know that liars always get found it!!

I have taken my fair share of abuse in recent weeks, tried to ignore it but when it’s so personal you can’t help but start to listen and believe it, the formspring.me questions were meant to be good fun and at first it was, all full of filthy questions and jokes but then it got nasty and the fact it can be kept anonymous means you have no idea who is sending the Q’s i tried to make joke of them and not get mad but inside i was fuming!! so much so i disabled the account and spent ages taking my followers from 1100 to under 300, if you know me then you will know how nosey i am i can’t help myself, so not knowing who was asking the questions drove me mad.

Certain people on twitter gave me names of who they thought and others just seemed to be trying to set up people that they didn’t like, either way it got me extremely paranoid slowly over the last week or so i am pretty sure i know who it or they were but i won’t drag myself down to their level if they want to be petty and keep following me and bitch behind my back then i shall let them.

The last thing lately that is seriously getting to me is that even MORE people have decided it is ok to talk behind my back about the fact that i flirt on twitter all i can say is Get a grip of yourselves i am 26 years old and i won’t be told what i can or can’t say to people.  If i chose to flirt with someone and they flirt back then so be it if you have a problem come let me know or please just unfollow me, i know some ppl have kept on following me as they want to see what i am saying to other people, I’m not stupid trust me ; )

Anyway that was a long rant basically i did think of leaving twitter, i have thought about it many times then i think why should i ? i have done nothing wrong sooooooooooooo if you don’t like the fact i moan or seem like a drama queen then quite frankly – piss off

Twitter is there for us all to say exactly what we want, when we want, previously if unfollowed i would have been hurt and wondered what i had said or done but from now on i don’t give a shit and I’m going nowhere may not be on as much but i shall still be here so see ya back on twitter .

well that was a cheery blog update

Thank you! November 3, 2009

It was my best friends birthday today, she was 30.  Alana is so hard to buy for so i decided to buy her 30 presents ranging from chocolate to a charm for her links of London bracelet, i also got together lots of piccies and through Photobox added my own captions to them it was good fun and she loved it : ) also someone very smart and rather special made a cd of her fave songs and also the song that was number 1 on the week she was born adding some pics to the cd case making it very personal to us – she adored it!

Anyway all 30 presents were greatly appreciated and Alana did get quite emotional making me all teary eyed haha i gave her all the presents in a gorgeous storage box that had pictures of golden labrador puppies on Sunday at her sisters house, today was her actual birthday and we went for lunch i gave her one last present the second half of my Calvin Klein ring, the 2 pieces join together to make one ring but they are friendship rings and u give the other away to your closest friend

The reason i am writing this is actually to print the words off the thank you card she gave to me today, it was beautiful a range called Mountain Arts have a look for them they will bring a tear to your eye

this is written by Barbara Cage

A simple “Thank you” doesn’t seem like enough

When someone does something as nice as you did,

there’s a growing gratitude that won’t ever end.

Even once the card is sent, the memory and the good feelings will linger ..

People like you make the world a better place,

because you think of ways to make a positive difference in the lives of others.

People like you make those you come contact with feel special

by acts of kindness and deeds of thoughtfulness.

You deserve the best out of life,

because that’s what you give.

Thanks again, and may your kindness and good deeds

Always come back to you.

 

she also had a personal message in the card which i won’t right down but today i needed that it made me smile and feel like maybe sometimes i am a good person and the things i do are appreciated

 

so Happy 3oth Birthday Alana xxx

Things that make me MAD and make me go grrrrrrrrrrrrrr October 18, 2009

• Bad manners
• Racists
• Biggots
• People who eat with their mouth open or make lots of noise while eating
• Child Abuse
• Domestic Abuse
• All forms of abuse
• Sectarian songs
• Jordan/Katie Price
• Kerry Katona
• Homophobic idiots
• Burning myself with my Straighteners
• Stubbing my wee toe on the bed/door/mirror
• Nosebleeds
• People who sneeze and don’t cover their mouth
• Virgin TV box when it fails to record my programmes
• Neds
• Guys/Girls who think looks are the most important thing to look for in a partner
• Grumpy people going on holiday at 4am – cheer the fuck up
• Chris Moyles – he really isn’t funny
• The people who go on Big Brother and try to become “celebrities”

Rachel October 13, 2009

Tomorrow my gorgeous Goddaughter Rachel turns 4 : )

All she has asked for is Annie on DVD, like her mummy and Aunty Karen she loves films especially musicals.  I know everyone thinks their children, neices/nephews are fab but Rachel really is she is so clever and smart has been going to dancing since she was 2 and is now in a wee cheerleading group which will eventually be Gymnastics when she turns 5.

My recent job offer really made me realise how much i will miss everyone but especially Rach, when it’s just the two of us we are in our own world she loves giving smoochy kisses and cuddles and everytime we see each other we rub noses it’s the cutest thing in the world.

I have Known Jaclyn her mum since i was 4 we have been through lots of ups and downs together and we have some amazing memories together, only have to say AC Milan and the we are in fits of giggles (private joke ; )  hehe)

Her relationship with Rachel’s dad didn’t work out so i have always been there to help where possible it was me she called when she went into labour at lunchtime on the 13th October, what a long day that was i am sure the labour ward thought we were a lesbian couple haha

Anyway i was punched and yelled at until the early hours of the morning when Rachel was born and i have loved her to bits ever since, i probably do spoil her but she is just too cute i can’t help myself i am a proud Aunty Karen and it makes me sad to think that if i go to Australia i will miss her first day at school and other events but that’s not what this is about

What i want to say to my gorgeous wee princess

Happy Birthday

Aunty Karen loves you with all her heart xx

. October 13, 2009

Do not stand at my grave and weep
I am not there, I do not sleep
I am a thousand winds that blow
I am the diamond glint on snow,
I am the sunlight on ripened grain
I am the gentle autumn rain,
When you awaken
In the morning’s hush
I am the swift uplifting rush,
Of quiet birds in circled flight
I am the stars that shine at night,
Do not stand at my grave and cry,
I am not there
I did not die.

Today .. September 30, 2009

Today i went to the funeral of Lily Black, she was 90 and my best friends gran.

You may think wow 90 is a fab age to live to and of course you would be right she had suffered hip replacements, strokes and earlier this year was diagnosed with breast cancer which they weren’t treating as it was so advanced.

She was such a witty, funny lady who loved to speak her mind even if it did cause some upset haha, on the first time i met her she offered me a sweet and i said “no thanks i’m fine” her response was i didn’t ask how you were i asked if you wanted a sweet!!! and she burst out laughing.

I guess for me the saddest part of today was seeing my friend and her sisters so upset, Alana my best friend her 2 sisters Susan and Jane have known so much sadness over the last few years, their parents died within a few years of each other and Lily was the last member of their “blood” family their parents were only children and they had no cousins – it’s really quite heartbreaking

Since i met Alana we became really good friends and she was always at my house and part of family events she is like the sister i never had so today i was upset for her because i know she is feeling alone and like her family is getting smaller when really it’s getting bigger as she has us and last year she married David who has a family who also love her

It really does make you think about your family and friends and how lost you would be without them

I’m not scared of death, it comes to us all but if i live to be Lily’s age i will be very thankful.

on the same day Lily passed away, another lady who i didn’t know but had heard all about and who seemed lovely also passed away surrounded by her family. Noreen and Lily rest in peace and know you will never be forgotten xx

When you walk through a storm
Hold your head up high
And don’t be afraid of the dark

At the end of the storm
Is a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of the lark

Walk on through the wind
Walk on through the rain
Though your dreams be tossed and blown

Walk on walk on with hope in your heart
And you’ll never walk alone
You’ll never walk alone

When you walk through a storm
Hold your head up high
And don’t be afraid of the dark

At the end of the storm
Is a golden sky
And the sweet silver song of the lark

Walk on through the wind
Walk on through the rain
Though your dreams be tossed and blown

Walk on walk on with hope in your heart
And you’ll never walk alone
You’ll never walk

You’ll never walk
You’ll never walk alone.

It’s a Hard Life September 25, 2009

love this song and love Queen

It’s A Hard Life lyrics

I don’t want my freedom
There’s no reason for living with a broken heart

This is a tricky situation
I’ve only got myself to blame
It’s just a simple fact of life
It can happen to anyone

You win – you lose
It’s a chance you have to take with love
Oh yeah – I fell in love
And now you say it’s over and I’m falling apart

It’s a hard life
To be true lovers together
To love and live forever in each others hearts
It’s a long hard fight
To learn to care for each other
To trust in one another right from the start
When you’re in love

I try to mend the broken pieces
I try to fight back the tears
They say it’s just a state of mind
But it happens to everyone

How it hurts – deep inside
When your love has cut you down to size
Life is tough – on your own
Now I’m waiting for something to fall from the skies
And I’m waiting for love

Yes it’s a hard life
Two lovers together
To love and live forever in each others hearts
It’s a long hard fight
To learn to care for each other
To trust in one another – right from the start
When you’re in love

Yes it’s a hard life
In a world that’s filled with sorrow
There are people searching for love in ev’ry way
It’s a long hard fight
But I’ll always live for tomorrow
I’ll look back on myself and say I did it for love
Yes I did it for love – for love – oh I did it for love

What a pleasure.. September 18, 2009

Today started off bright and early for me! work was busy and we were short staffed and all quite stressed out, after lunchtime the airport had gone quiet giving us all a break, i was covering a till when an elderly man asked me for help he was a bit lost and wanted to know where his flight to Toronto was leaving from – now normally we get asked about flight details 100 times a day it gets annoying seeing as we sell currency and don’t give airport information people just see the uniform and assume you can help.

As soon as i saw him he melted my heart, this wee old man was so adorable he got so flustered so i actually went out of the shop and told him i would take him to his gate he was so pleased.

We started walking and he told me he was 91 and had moved to Canada 60 years ago, as we were walking he took out his wallet and showed me an old fashioned picture of himself and his wife they had been married 69 years!!! he got a bit emotional as he told me she had sadly passed away at the start of the year – I could feel myself getting teary eyed so i took his hand and we sat in the departures lounge for 5 minutes, while sitting a young man came over who happened to be his great grandson, the grandson was panicked as he had thought he had lost him! he was really funny telling him off as he was 91 and could look after himself.

As i was leaving them and saying goodbye he turned to me and said i am so happy i happened to ask the most lovely girl for help, you have been so kind and your kindness reminds me of my wife, he gave me a wee hug and kissed my hand and asked when he was next home if he could pop in to my work and buy me a cup of tea!

i was just stunned that at 91 he was still planning another holiday back to Scotland.

He really did have me smiling the rest of the day, it just shows how a few kind words and being nice to someone can make them feel so good.

9/11 September 7, 2009

it’s coming up to the Anniversary of the terrorist attacks that changed so much in the world we live in. I think everyone will remember where they were and what they were doing when they heard the news – me? i was in my Italian class and a lecturer came through to say a plane had crashed into the Pentagon, at that point everyone just assumed it was an accident and we carried on with our work it was only when she came back in to say another plane had struck the Trade Centre that we all got up and went to see the TV

What we saw was terrifying but still we had no idea it was a terrorist attack the colour quickly drained from one guy in particular, Steven’s dad was a computer engineer and travelled to and from New York – he was there at that time.  he went off to call his mum and actually we never saw him for a few days, but when he came back he told us eventually they had got through to his dad and that he was ok! about 4 months later his dad decided life was too tough and he committed suicide.  we never saw Steven again and our Course Leader told us he was trying to get on with his life and help his mum, it was all very sad but none of us were overly close to him we sent emails but got no replies.  About a year later i heard his mum had also passed away i wasn’t told how but rumour was that she also committed suicide which is absolutely heart breaking to think of him all alone both parents dead. I’d have like to have kept in touch with him but as i said we weren’t “friends” just had classes together recently met up with a girl from back then and she told me he had went back to Uni got his degree and was working as a translator somewhere abroad so hopefully he is happy.

as the Anniversary approaches the tv is full of Documentaries that are just so sad and must be so painful for anyone to watch who lost anyone they loved, i can’t imagine what the people of New York went through and i know from personal experience what a small terrorist attack done to Glasgow and how scary it was but for something as massive as that it was have been terrifying and i suppose it still is!!

I went to New York in 2004 with my mum for her 50th Birthday, to stand near the site of the Trade Centre and see the huge cross and the candles that still burned for all the lost souls that were killed that day was utterly heartbreaking

not sure why i decided to write this down probably because of all the programmes that are on and as it’s so close to 9/11

Rest in Peace all who perished, i may not know you all by name but you will never be forgotten x