For some reason today is the day i realised i am truly blessed ..
I have been sulking about for the last few weeks feeling sorry for myself, depressed, lonely i have been extremely grumpy and snapping at things i would normally laugh at.
I have felt my old life in Scotland had faded away to a memory and that maybe i was still trying to live that life and be a part of everyone’s life through facebook, twitter etc ..
Truth is i have stopped myself truly moving on and i don’t know why?! I get jealous hearing about friends going out, having nights out drinking and gossiping going to the cinema, just being in my comfort zone.
Yes i have met a fantastic guy over here and he treats me like a princess but still deep down i longed to be home in my own surroundings not having to bother to try meet new people as i was happy with the ones i already knew.
And today sat at home alone i really thought about my life, had a cry (i’m good at that) and realised i am pathetic!!!! truly and utterly pathetic
I am thousands of miles away in Australia, i was given an amazing opportunity and had i not taken it i would never of met Paul, i would never have met his amazing family, who after one meeting welcomed me with open arms into there family and who would do anything for me, i have gained a future sister and brother in law and 2 gorgeous nephews and a beautiful neice.
I have chosen to sit around depressed and moping around the place like a sad old bint but today for some reason the dark cloud above me has lifted and i see how wrong i have been, i am lucky, truly lucky to be alive and have people who love me. To see my mum smile on skype when i logged on and how excited she is about coming to Australia makes me happy
I have said it many times before but life is too short to be acting like i was i have learnt that the hard way at times but i want to be here, i want to live my life and i want to have fun
I know that my blog doesn’t get read, but sometimes it’s good just to type away and not have a care in the world
even all my errors with grammar etc make me smile 
This seriously could be me writing this blog post. It kind of freaked me out a little how CLOSE to my life this is. Its normal to get homesick sometimes just remember all the good stuff about being over here. Like sunny days in winter for example!
Wow thank you for reading x